not sure how this started
only that we parted
that night in a fever
dreamt you'd always be there
i know i was naive
i know i was lying
to myself, to myself, to myself
now i wanna know, is this heaven, is this hell
break me like a mirror
when you kiss me, can you taste my fear
is this the start of something
or just the end of nothing
i know that i'm naive, yeah
i know that i'm lying, yeah
to myself, to myself, to myself
now i wanna know, is this heaven, is this hell
i'm a bad girl when you please
pray and eat pussy when i'm on my knees
you and me, we sit in trees
F-U-C-K-I-N-G
but one night you go for the throat
and in one fight you started to gloat
it's alarming, you're harming our karmic ties
are things ending or starting
you're like heaven
or are you like hell
girl, you're like heaven
or are you like hell
your midnight surprise
you love my fuck-me eyes
girl, you're hot and cold
i'm so dashing and bold
but when you bare your teeth
i'm coquettish and sweet
but if you want the truth
it's fucking hell with you
it's fucking hell with you
if i'm really being real, this fucked me up
if i'm really being real, you fucked me up
i tricked myself thinking you were my reflection
but all we ever did was chase projections
affection-starved, i carved out my heart
things got dark when i carved out the stars
when i carved out my eyes, i saw the truth:
heaven's gone, now hell's with you
break me like a mirror
when you love me, do you love my tears
is this the start of something
or just the end of nothing
i know i'm so naive, yeah
i know i'm fucking lying, yeah
to myself, to myself, to myself
now i wanna know, is this really hell
cuz you're like heaven
or are you like hell
oh girl, you're like heaven
or are you like hell
your midnight surprise
you love my fuck-me eyes
girl, you're hot and cold
i'm so dashing and bold
but when you bare your teeth
i'm coquettish and sweet
but if you want the truth
it's fucking hell with you
(your midnight surprise)
it's fucking hell with you
(you love my fuck-me eyes)
credits
from Once Upon a Tiger,
released October 24, 2023
Produced, written, arranged, and performed by Mabel Harper as Don't do it, Neil. Recorded, mixed, and mastered by Mabel Harper in a living room in Philadelphia, PA.