i'm taking care of myself today
i'm dropping all of my love, cuz it can't overcome my hate
i'm gonna forcibly reset my brain
and forget who the hell i was or what we were yesterday
i can't remain here with my mistakes
and i need a fresh start or i think i might break
so i'll be leaving, for both of our sakes
i've got a road to hit and a death to fake
i'm not a greater spirit; i'm just a girl with a lot of problems
and i know you won't want to deal with me, just sick old me
so when you're fast asleep, i'll be taking my leave
cuz today is the day that i take care of myself
i throw my cigarette filters on the street
who gives a shit? It's just asphalt and jacked-up concrete
maybe it's all futile, cuz most days are the same
but now i'm gonna try to finally go ahead and make a change
cuz i haven't been getting better; i have this wound that'll never close
i'm tired of suturing it poorly with withered rose and bitter prose
so when you're fast asleep, i'll finally go and take my leave
cuz you don't deserve me at my worst
cuz i'm so fucking wack, but you give me heart attacks
i know that shit sounds corny, but you deserve the whole story
but even if you deserve the best of me, you don't need my bullshit too
and that's why i'm leaving - cuz i hate me more than i love you