Pour Light on Everything

by Aqua Girl! and Don't do it, Neil

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shouts out to rylin aka Aqua Girl!, for without whom this thing would literally not exist

aqua-girl.bandcamp.com

additional shouts out to corinne p, cassidy w, kevin z-w, matt g, amy y, oaktea, the bangtan boys (especially jungkook and suga), & good mental health

plz take care of yourself <3

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released October 31, 2018

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Don't do it, Neil Philadelphia, Pennsylvania

hi, I'm Mabel. please take care of yourself.

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Track Name: Aqua Girl! - Get a Grip!
maybe you can find it in your heart to let it go

I feel like the grass thats always underneath your shoes
when youre walking backwards with a blindfold on
and i could make excuses to try and justify my actions
but the fact is you were right and i was always wrong

and i can sense it the way you can tell that i meant it
without even saying a single right word
your eyes are blue like the ocean i am trapped in
for as long as youve got a grip on my life
i wanna get a grip on my life
please help me get a grip on my life

i wanna get up and dust myself off but youre blocking the path
that i should be on
do you want to fight me
do i deserve it
please like me
Track Name: Aqua Girl! - Dust
"Despite all of the cracks in my head i think i need to go back" she said
"I think i need to go back" she said
"I think i need to go back" she said

"even though they want me dead i think i want you to be my friend we can run from the darkness permanently I dont know if i really deserve these things"

"keep on running and never look back
as long as we're in love we're on the right track
The earth is a home to so many creatures
But i wont let a single one get between us"

"I know the holy ground it holds us down but im not one to just sit around and let my physical form dictate what i try to do"

Hold on tight to ones you love cause one day theyll be gone and we'll all live in the dust

Okay now i dont want to see you that way
I just want us all to be happy

So I'll wake up and crawl out of the dust

"I broke my back now help me to mend
I think i need more than just a long long rest
I need you to help me heal completely
This is not the kind of thing you can count on leaving"

"Lets form a symbiotic habitat
figure out what we need to live like that
Youre the most important thing in my entire life
So lets open up and really start to survive"

"life in this world can be so nice
All we have to do is try and try
Though the world seems dark and unforgiving i promise its worth it keep on living"

"So lets hold onto each other for as long as we can
I think that that's good enough of a plan because I'll miss you when youre gone and so will you"
Track Name: Aqua Girl! - girlnextdoor
she is the dream girl
i'm just the girl next door
and i have to hide
or i'll be found out for sure
that i'm just a fake
we're just fakes
i don't wanna be this way

we've been hiding from your parents for 3 long years
and oh how long will it take for them to to finally hear
that youve been more than just a positive force in my life
yeah if you ever leave than i will fail to fly

yeah i need you like the stars need the sky
and the earth needs the sun
like how i love everyone
but quite a bit more yeah way more love for you
yeah i love everyone but i love everything that you do

I've been thinking alot lately about letting you know i'll do whatever it takes youll see how far i'll go just to prove to the world though i may be scared to say but i've definitely never ever felt this way
you make a girl want to scream and dance
so come on grab my hand
give yourself into the trance
no we no longer have to hide it
come on this feels so inviting
take a match we can light it
the real world isnt that frightening
Track Name: Aqua Girl! - Lombard (Cover)
i woke up way out of town
all sewn up, lying on the ground
and then you walked on over
you said, "girl, get sober and get the fuck out of lombard"

i'm too gay for everyone i know
except you, the one i show
everything weird about me
there's something weird about you, fucking weird about you

we'll get outta town
the fuck outta town
we'll get out of lombard
the fuck outta lombard

we'll get outta town
the fuck outta town

lombard's the same
as arcadia bay
trashed and laid to waste
all my mistake
are here on display
trashed and laid to waste

let's get the fuck out of town
Track Name: Aqua Girl! - Skeletons
I can come back and try
to help you
realize
I just need some more time
to make it
back alive

I've got skeletons inside my closet I think I need your help with this
I've got secrets that I keep hiding I think I need your help with this
I need you here
I need you now
I need you
by my side forever

I just hope you will try
to open
up your mind
I hope that you'll be kind
to me while
i survive

I've got skeletons inside my closet I think I need your help with this
I've got secrets that I keep hiding I think I need your help with this
I need you here
I need you now
I need you
by my side forever
Track Name: Aqua Girl! - No Medicine
I've got eyes in the back of my head

I don't want you to forget how it felt when we were alone together
And I held you so close to my chest that you could feel the pulse of my flesh vessel

I just want you to renounce me so I can move on and be without you
If you don't want the wound to heal then no medicine will work no antibiotics
Track Name: Don't do it, Neil - Forget You!
i won't forget you and everything you did
cuz now i don't know how to fit in
thinking about it now still makes me livid
cuz now i'm retreating inside
i'm so fucked and i want to die

i'm so fucking scared, and it's like you hardly care
but even if i have some shitty days
at least i'm a thousand miles away
but i'm still trapped in these fucking memories
can't forget everything that you did to me
i wanna love without being a coward
every good thing gets devoured
by you, why are you still in my head
sometimes i even wish you were dead
you ruined me

i can barely stay employed
or love cuz i'm too fucking paranoid
every night i'm losing so much sleep
you put this fucking disease in me
i just wanna spend all my time inebriated
and i hate being fucking complicated
now i fear ever being attached
why can't you just stay in my past
i'm over you
Track Name: Don't do it, Neil - Sex, Love, & Cigarettes, Pt. 1
sex, love and cigarettes lowering my defenses
i'm staying up every night
in my room thinking about you, what the fuck am i supposed to do?
you got me up every night

only in dreams

sex, drugs, and cigarettes dulling every sense
i'm fucked up every night
never had much common sense, always thinking in the future tense
don't wanna fuck this up, but i might

only in dreams
sex, love, and cigarettes
Track Name: Don't do it, Neil - Sex, Love, & Cigarettes, Pt. 2
you mean so much more than words can say

i don't want to leave your place
i just want to lay with you all day
you don't even have to say that you love me
just use me, hurt me, fuck me

even if everything's okay
i still fear that someday
you might just go away

i'll let you do what you want with me
so you can use me, hurt me
as long as i can pretend that you love me
Track Name: Don't do it, Neil - In a Dark Room (Cover)
if i can't be who i said i am
then i'll tie myself back with my same two hands and
never grow, never progress past this
cuz i'm stuck with this idea in my head
of being myself and being loved by my friends
and you've got a lot of leverage
it's your personality i guess
i just wanna show affection
and live life without painful distractions
i just want peace
i just want everyone to be happy
i just a want a piece of happiness

you got me going now i'm
never gonna leave you now
you really got me going now
i'm so fixated on your eyes i cannot look down
cannot look down cannot look down
it's like i'm losing all my brains
they leaked out through my ears
and i will never be the same

you taught me how to love myself in a dark room
you taught me how to bleed
you taught me how to love myself in a dark room
you taught me how to bleed

breathe in breathe out
i'm going back and forth so now
i'll breathe in breathe in breathe out

you just gotta trust me
you just gotta trust me baby
i don't wanna love me
but i said i could love anybody

i'm going back and forth so now
i'll breathe in breathe in breathe out

you taught me how to love myself in a dark room
Track Name: Don't do it, Neil - (Moonlight)
when we walked all night, i saw the moon in your eyes
and when i saw, i believed, and then the next day i grieved
i felt a great void within; forgive me for all of my sins
cuz you're the reason i breathe, so please just come back to me
the city dreams
Track Name: Don't do it, Neil - Ride or Die Song
you're so sick
and i'm never sick of you
i'm just afraid that you'll think i'm a waste of time
cuz i'm so sick
but i'm trying to be better too
even though everything gets twisted in my mind
i'm not okay
but you make me wanna be
cuz i don't wanna tread water for the rest of my life
if we're okay
then i just wanna be
there for you, i'm not perfect but i'm ride or die

i fucking hate getting wasted
just to stave off my self-hatred
our world could blank on some vacuum decay shit
cuz i've got time and i've got patience
don't wanna rush, i just gotta say shit
i don't need to be completely fine
just put lovebites on my razorlines

i don't wanna drag you down
cuz i don't wanna see you drown

i won't let you down

baby, i won't crash your car
i swear on poems and stars
baby, i won't crash your car
i swear on these words and stars
baby, i won't crash your car
i swear on poems and stars
baby, i won't crash your car
i swear on the moon and stars
baby, i won't crash your car
i swear on these songs and stars
baby, i won't crash your car
i swear i'll never ever break your heart
oh baby