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can i trust what i'm seeing
well i believe in something
i believe there's meaning
no i believe there's nothing
can i trust what i'm seeing
well i believe in something
i believe there's meaning
no i believe there's nothing at all
i believe there's nothing at all
always slipping up
i'll drink it up till i can't stand
looking for a fight
if i see your guy i might throw hands
always slipping up
i'll drink it up till i can't stand
looking for a fight
if i see your guy i might throw hands
the streetlights shine on me
how can i change reality
will my silly hopes prevail
you and me, that's my true will
sex, love, and cigarettes
how can i live with my regrets
they keep me up all night
they keep me up
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cillian
03:05
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oh cillian
you're so sophisticated
the door's still open
whether you walk in
well, i guess that's up to you
i guess there was jordan
but they were so boring
i really tried to settle
but you're so monumental
well, who could top you
you made your mark
visit me in the dark
cillian, you're a star
you don't deserve me
but i can't desert you
you're not something i need
i just know, i just...
oh cillian
you're so avoidant
i'd open the door for you
but i'm not looking through
cuz i've got better things to do
like ask out casey
but they're a real mystery
i tried to tell them the truth
but they can be so aloof
it reminds me of you
you made your mark
visit me in the dark
cillian, you're a star
you don't deserve me
but i can't desert you
you're not something i need
i just know
i deserve to know if it was all in my head
was any of it real
until i know, the cat is both alive and dead
so cruel and banal
the possibility's just killing me
ambiguity is fucking misery
i don't go with the flow
just obstruct the waves till they drown me
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payday
02:02
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cashing in like
girl, you're so money, yeah
spend you tonight
girl, you're so money, yeah
payday
payday
payday
payday
yeah yeah yeah
top thots in adidas tracksuits
if you back me, you know i'll always back you
hit it from the front, you got suction like a vacuum
shower sex, yeah we steaming up the bathroom
oh my god, damn girl, you hit the spot
yeah you got me like a rock, keep me wound round the clock
moans ecstatic, erratic
i give girl dick like a faggot
i've never been so attracted
i'm shooting full automatic
we're whipping it like cream
i'll be your wet dream
girl prince rocking that supreme
i like you way more than money
been staying up lately
waiting for my payday
monday tuesday wednesday
any day with you is like a payday
cashing in like
girl, you're so money, yeah
spend you tonight
girl, you're so money, yeah
payday
payday
payday
payday
been staying up lately
waiting for my payday
monday tuesday wednesday
any day with you is like a payday
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sugary candy sweet
02:20
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when i do coke with my friends
you keep me safe in my head
when i'm with her in my bed
i wish i was with you instead
i want something else
i need someone else
give me something else
are you someone else
you're a real mystery
but you're so sugary candy sweet
i know nothing's as it seems
but we're lovers in my dreams
you're a real mystery
but you're so sugary toothache sweet
am i right, could this be
a mutual fantasy
a mutual fantasy
i've been feeling dead inside
sick of passing ships in the night
cuz all i do is play pretend
that it's you who's in my bed
could this be something else
i don't want no one else
could we be something else
i don't want no one else
you're a real mystery
but you're so sugary candy sweet
i know nothing's as it seems
but we're lovers in my dreams
you're a real mystery
but you're so sugary toothache sweet
am i right, could this be
a mutual fantasy
sometimes i feel i've got to run away
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thought loops
01:19
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got me fixed in my thought loops
i really tried hard, but it’s hard not to love you
you drug me with the lovely, i’m fumbling
now i’m stumbling over words, it’s humbling
in fact my tact is retracted
lemme be candid: you’re so attractive
you’re vexing, pulling mab shit in my inception
i’m stressing trying to express my affection
flexing when i’m sexing, not connecting
it’s depressing, but now i’m course correcting
i’m reflecting, you’re a blessing, if perplexing
decompressing, i always pray before texting
the next thing is professing you’re the best thing
i’m just venting everything i’ve been repressing
so interesting, stressing over texting
if confessing doesn’t work, well i really like the friend thing
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dashboard
04:08
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staring at the dashboard
a confessional's all that i'm asking for
if it's not right, i'll write all night
keep my secrets locked up and safe inside
can we break the pattern
i'll bear the cross, pierce my heart, let it shatter
turn off the lights, pull me inside
i'll be your secret if you swear to keep mine
oh my, oh my
press your body against mine
press your lips against my skin
i'll be your secret if i can be your only
you told me our story's not done
but when i draw closer, you always seem to run
can we break the pattern
does anything we do really matter
i'll set it right and give my life
and carry us even when you don't try
i'm not stupid, i know i'm never on your mind
but maybe i'm foolish, cuz you're always on mine
i'm not stupid, i know i'm never on your mind
but maybe i'm foolish, cuz you're always on mine
staring at the dashboard
to tell the truth is all that i'm asking for
between our sighs, speak no more lies
can i tell you everything that's been on my mind
i'm gonna break the pattern
break through physics and the laws of matter
i swear i'll fight to set this right
and force myself to swallow my pride
don't play stupid, i know i'm always on your mind
it's not foolish, cuz you're always on mine
don't play stupid, i know i'm always on your mind
it's not foolish, cuz you're always on mine
on mine, anxiety
i blow my chest out, try my best to breathe
oh baby, come taste me
fuck me all night, come feel my teeth
i got teeth, baby
i can't sleep, baby
come over, baby
and fight me, baby
i got teeth, baby
i can't sleep, baby
come over, baby
and fight me, baby
(pushing me away)
(show me love, i'm addicted to your love)
(we keep falling apart, we must be getting overfamiliar)
(even if everything's okay, i still feel that someday you might just go away)
(i really like what's going on)
(i'm not getting better, no i haven't been getting better)
i got teeth, baby
i can't sleep, baby
come over, baby
and fight me, baby
i got teeth, baby
i can't sleep, baby
come over, baby
and fight me, baby
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make time 4 me
03:35
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spend your day with me
or are you busy
if you've got nothing
then let's do something
it's always "someday"
what aren't you telling me
you're such a mystery
could you make time for me cuz i miss you
make time for me cuz i miss you
no tact, the sad bitch is back
in fact i'm afraid i don't know how to act
i might fight over slights, it's not right
but in my sight you're so bright and i'm frightened
(you brighten my day) when you're around i guess
(you lighten my burdens) when you're around i guess
i'm less once you've left, i honestly confess
i'm the best at making all the best things a mess
these things you do to me
confuse reality
i'm always chasing
just show me your hidden face, then
be with me
could you be with me
be with me
could you be with me
make time for me
make time for me
make time for me
make time for me
be with me
make time for me
make time for me
make time for me
make time for me
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Don't do it, Neil Philadelphia, Pennsylvania
Mabel Harper • traversing the grid of death
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